So I left for a week, leaving just a note. I secretly watched him on the baby monitor and saw him break down. I laughed—until he called his mother for help.
But my smile faded the moment I heard what she told him.
When I found out I was pregnant, I quit my job to focus on being a mother and wife. My husband, Victor, supported my decision, saying it was best for our child in the long run.
My pregnancy was smooth. I didn’t face any serious complications, which meant I could still move around comfortably.
I often went to the market, cooked elaborate meals, and even kept the house spotless.
My nesting instincts kicked in early, around the second trimester, and I became almost obsessive about keeping things clean. “Our house has never looked this good,” Victor told me one evening as he walked into our freshly polished living room. He leaned over, kissed me on the cheek, and smiled.
“Thank you for keeping everything together for us.”
I felt warm inside hearing him say that.
It wasn’t easy, but his appreciation made it worth it. I kept up that routine until I gave birth at 39 weeks.
The day our daughter, Lily, came into the world, everything shifted. I had thought I knew what love was before, but when she was placed in my arms, I realized I had been wrong.
My entire universe narrowed to the tiny human breathing against my chest.
She needed me for everything—every feeding, every cry, every diaper change. Nothing else mattered. But to Victor, it seemed like I was doing less.
He noticed the laundry piling up, the meals getting repetitive, the clutter that hadn’t existed when I was pregnant.
“Why has the house gotten so messy?” he asked one evening, frowning as he reheated leftovers. “And we’ve been eating the same food three days in a row.”
“I don’t have time to cook something new every day,” I explained, shifting Lily in my arms.
“She cries constantly. She has colic, Vic.
She wants to be held all the time.
If I put her in the crib, she screams. I barely even get to shower.”
Victor sighed, shaking his head. “She can stay in the crib for a while.
You could do things around the house while she’s in there.
It won’t take that long.”
That was the moment I snapped. “Why don’t you try it, then?” I yelled, my voice cracking from exhaustion and hurt.
“Do you know what it’s like to breastfeed every two hours, barely sleep, and still try to function? Do you know how draining it is when she cries the second I put her down?
I literally have no time to do anything else!”
“What are you saying?” he shot back.
“I work all day. I come home to a messy house and leftovers. Of course I’m frustrated.
Stop hiding behind the baby and admit you’re being lazy.”
His words cut like knives.
My eyes filled with tears, and I turned away. “That hurt,” I whispered, walking into our bedroom before he could see me break.
I lay there with Lily sleeping on my chest, silently weeping. Yes, Victor supported us financially, but he was barely home.
And when he was, he rarely helped with Lily, except for a quick diaper change if I needed to shower.
